I love you

Hey, it's labour day, I should be doing my homework. Now that is so ironic. But it's true I have this whole pile of homework waiting, wickedly, just sitting there, I can feel it's evil aura emanciating... I feel even more put off now.T_T


Haaiy. I finally went back to Touchkidz! Oh I love my church ^^. But I feel really bad when I slack off on devotion and all, and I just make up excuses to myself that I'm actually really busy, and I'll do it later, and later never comes. That happens with so much of my stuff, like homework. Telling someone something I really need to tell them. When's Mother's Day??


I haven't been a good girl actually, and I just think how nice it'll be if I could actually tell my Mum 'I love you' or something like that. That kind of thing, it's gonna be really hard to do, serious. I'm not the kind of person who's articulate about the things I really care about. And I do take alot of these things that are really close to my heart for granted. If I really mean something, most probably you'll never really hear me actually say it [stuff like I love you or I really appreaciate you]. Argh.


And I can't count how many times I might have said Iloveyou to someone who helped me or something like that. But when it comes to the time when I really mean it, it just won't come out, and there's this lump in my throat and my mouth'll be dry. I'm a lost case aren't I.