Ya know, sometimes I really wish I was a guy, others, I thank God I'm female. -_-" Like yesterday. There was this certain someone [obviously a guy] who was oblivious about his surroundings. hmph. We were chatting over msn, and most of the time he was crapping.


Well, so I was trying to ignore him but the msn chatbox kept on appearing. and the reason I was trying to ignore him was because my mom was right next to me. And she was trying to get me off the com. So this certain someone asked me why I wasn't replying, and was it because I was drooling over some guy-who-I-don't-actually-know's picture. O_O Do you actually think I'd do that? You gotta be joking *laughs* So I closed that box 'cause my mom was right next to me. I had no idea what was going on in her mind. But I was trying my very best not to laugh at the ridiculousity of it all. *laughs*


All I have to say to that guy is no offense but, sometimes when people don't reply to you means that they don't want to talk to you or they're not available. And you should then find someone else to talk to.


Think before you speak. Or type in this case.

is she all

Does Anyone Even Read My Posts? I Know Geri Does, But Is She All?


Is She All.

Never say Never

Music now: Coldplay - The Scientist [www.radioblogclub.com]

Ahh, it's the weekend now. I treated yesterday like it was the weekend anyway. *shrugs* Haha, I'm happy that I didn't gofor Cadenza concert now. I spent the whole night watching Da Chang Jin yesterday till 3+am. I felt good the next day. I woke up so late!! 9am leh. T_T I think I'm gonna spend the night watching Da Chang Jin again^^ Can't wait.


Hmm, what did I want to talk about today? Talk about forgetfullness >< . Is forgetfulness spelt with two 'l's or one? >< Ah yes, never say never. Never say Never. That's what my uncle told me. Or else I'll have to eat my words. Actually, thinking about it now, eating my words ain't that bad, I've eaten too many of my words already. *sighs*


Guess what I said never about. I said "I'll never marry a guy who can't cook". Ah, big dreams. ^^ lol. Then my uncle and aunt said I'd most likely have to eat my words. *sticks out tongue* too bad. To avoid marrying someone who can't cook I won't even have any romantic interest about anyone who can't cook. Hahah *truimphant laughter* The best plans are the most stupid. Then they said that I'm gonna have a hard time getting married. [I'm gonna be a spinster! ^^] Firstly to have someone taller than me would leave me with 10% of the male population. Then to ask for someone who can cook from there would be practically impossible [I'm happy *shrugs*] I hope I don't marry. I hope I don't fall in love either.


It seems such a hassle. Infatuation is worse. Idolizing someone is the worst of all. blah, I'm starting to crap, why am I talking bout these kinda things? Oh, at the time when I was talking with them, it seemed so funny, and with my cousin injecting stuff like 'know how to cook instant noodles can already' and 'Oh, I know how to cook rice what' Then my uncle went, 'when I was stayed in a hostel I could cook a whole meal okae?' My cousin added that he could fry eggs 'so egg and rice add a little bit of black sauce is a meal already lorh' Haha. See why I won't ever marry a guy that can't cook?


All my uncle and aunts are so nice. And they all dote on me alot. :D At least all the ones on my mom's side. [well, I'm the only girl there anyway] I'm so spoilt man. so spoilt. *doesn't really care*


Never say Never then. I'll have to edit this post if I ever.

Hey, I forgot how horrible weight training was. Then I started thinking WHAT in the world made me inflict such self-torture on myelf. FuYing... YiDan... *haunts you both* ah but I feel good now. Another few weight trainings and I'll ave arms muscles. ^^ Like Emma!! But her's are getting lousier due to lack of practice. Oh man, I can't believe how easily her bones break. I bet she doesn't take alot of calcium products. *cheese is good...*


Ah, what did I want to write about? Ah ya, my forgetfullness. :D I didn't get booked for my low socks today, nor did I get booked for not having a nametag. [must remember to buy badge] But I got booked for not handing in something that I should have handed in long ago and I do have it but I just ALWAYS forget to bring it. If someone could install me a memory chip, I'd be so very pleased.


My history teacher confiscated my sketchbook. This is the second time. The third time, she's gonna tell my parents. I should tie my hands up during history class. Not that xin tong, but it's the sketchbook geri gave me, and Shane's drawing of megaman is in there. Lol, Shane is cute. Guess what? We were watching Bend It Like Beckham. So why must I be looking up at the screen when I could just as well be listening to a radio talk about how this indian man got kicked out of the cricket club and got laughed at by the cricket team cuz of his turban. Turbans are kinda cool, makes me think of Arabia and ___ and the 40 thieves. I can't remember who. ><


Ah, Arabia is cool, not so much anymore, It's kinda lost it's exoticness in the modern world. But most historic countries are all exotic, except for europe and america. Look at China, the middle east, Persia, blahblah. Even the Russian tzars were kinda cool. But europe ah, drab and dull, seeking to conquer so the world will notice. I must tie my hands up during history, for my own sake. I do listen to her, just my eyes aren't on her and my hands are a little busy. But what for eyes when what she's saying can't be seen and what for hands when what she's saying can't be felt?


The people of the world... *sighs*

Oh, I just realised we're supposed to um highlight the stuff >< *blurr*
been in love
been dumped
shoplifted
been fired
been in a fist fight
snuck out of your parent's house
been arrested
gone on a blind date
skipped school
seen someone die
been to Canada
been to Mexico
been on a plane
love someone or miss someone right now
lain on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
made a snow angel
flown a kite
built a sand castle
gone puddle jumping
played dress up
jumped into a pile of leaves
gone sledding
cheated while playing a game
been lonely
fallen asleep at work/school
used a fake id
watched the sun set
felt an earthquake/tremor
been through a hurricane
touched a snake
slept beneath the stars
been tickled
been robbed
been misunderstood
danced in the moonlight
liked the way I look
witnessed a crime
questioned my heart
been obsessed with post-it notes
squished barefoot through the mud
been lost
been to the opposite side of the country
swum in the ocean
felt like dying
cried yourself to sleep
played cops and robbers
recently colored with crayons
sung karaoke
paid for a meal with only coins
done something you told yourself you wouldn't
made prank phone calls
laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
caught a snowflake on your tongue
danced in the rain
written a letter to Santa Claus
been kissed under a mistletoe
blown bubbles
made a bonfire on the beach
crashed a party
gone roller-skating
glued your hand to something
got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
kissed a fish
sat on a roof top
screamed at the top of your lungs
done a one-handed cartwheel
talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
stayed up all night
didn't take a shower for a week
pick and ate an apple right off the tree
climbed a tree
had a tree house
is scared to watch scary movies alone
believed in ghosts
have more then 30 pairs of shoes
jumped into a pool/hot tub/lake with all your clothes on
been told you're hot by a complete stranger
broken a bone
been easily amused
caught a fish then ate it
caught a butterfly
laughed so hard you cried
cried so hard you laughed
cheated on a test
cheated on a lover
have a Britney Spears CD
forgotten someone's name
French braided someone's hair
gone skinny dipping in a pool
have had a fantasy over someone you love as a good friend
run tanned naked
ran naked in the rain

I did write a letter to Santa Claus and he replied kae. I still have his letter to me, he said I had been a good girl. The North Pole is cool. My childhood is seriously one great childhood.

Got this off Geri's blog cuz I'm feeling real bored and in no mood to do jap sakubun


10 firsts:

first boyfriend/girlfriend: HAHA never had one. don't plan on having one

first best friend: Sher [and yvonne, but I can't remember yvonne anymore]

first lie: >< My first lie, the one I remember the most. P1?? I remember cuz I got a red marks on my hand after that

first piercings: Ears, 7, with sher, they closed already at 8 [am i pro or what?]

first crush: p5?

first CD: Um,I don't know. u can check my cupboard, I'm not into cds that much, most of the stuff I want is on the net. [mind you, it's not illegal, the stuff I want I mean]

first stuffed animal: I have no idea. My bed cupboard is full of the stuff


lasts:

last cigarette: huh? what? smoking? I'm underage, anyway, my pastor said it tasted gross.

last alchoholic beverage: um. wine at jiejie may's wedding?

last movie seen: Dont ask. Ohya. Marathon. It's really nice. I RECOMMEND IT!!

last phone call: today

last cd played: anime, yakitate JAPAN!! :D on yesterday

last bubble bath: p2? Then my bro kicked a hole in the tub a year back.

last time you cried: When I watched Marathon. :D Told you it's good

last song: Seymour's Ambition

last thing you said online: don't ask.


have you evers:

have you ever dated one of your best friends: who would want to DO that??

have you ever skinny dipped: Singapore doesn't have crystal clear lakes with a huge forest surrounding them.

have you ever been on tv: hmm, no?

have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: No

have you ever fallen in love: Love. no Infatuation. ya

have you ever lost someone you loved: .no?

have you ever been depressed: yupyup.

have you ever woken up and not known where you were: YES guess where I was. at home.


7 places you've been to today:

1. RGS

2. RI

3. Rivervale Plaza

4. Home?

5. I'm running out of stuff. busstop

6. To sleep

7. The fantasy world of cyberspace


6 things you've done today:

1. Learned the Mambo

2. Sweat a whole lot of sweat

3. tapped my laptop keys

4. gave TTK and Melody of Oblivion to Shuyan. finally

5. wore my new glasses during chem

6. watched a little of the first episode of xin niang shi ba sui


:D Favorite things to do in NO order:

1. Drink Milo

2. Go to church

3. sleep

4. *my brain's dead*

5. think


3 choices:

1. chicken or beef flavor ramen noodles? beef

2. makeup, or no makeup? none

3. cute outfit, or jeans and hoodie? cute outfit=?? jeans and hoodie.


2 things you want to do before you die:

1. Know that I know God

2. Set up my boutique


1 wish:

I wish I can really be a good christian and find my strength and happines in my Lord.


I can hear Da Chang Jin music in the backgrnd, my mom's so gonna kill me.

God and love

I feel super dumb. I feel super dead. And I can't wait for sunday cause it's church day. :D Church is nice, church is good. I ain't promoting my religion or anything but it's really true. My church inspires me, fills me up with good feeling [lol, that came out wierd]. Gives me my dreams and my goals.


Dance today was kinda fun, Ms Amy is real nice [but sick]. Geri was unsporting,well so was I, but not as bad as Geri. >< Anyway, I think Geri dances well :D, mambo is fun. You know, they should make RI guys learn dance as well. Just because your in a boys school gives you reason to slack off? Totally unfair kae. You don't learn how to cook, you don't learn how to dance, you don't learn how to sew, you don't learn.. don't learn.. LOTS OF LIFESKILLS. Why do people think RI is so great seriously. [I'm so gonna get LOTS of enemies] But my cousin "developed" into a selfish pig, in RI. :


Someone said I was reliable. I have a feeling that someone, or more specifically, those two someones were joking. Reliable? Me? *laughs my head off* *cough.sputter* Ah anyway, I'm feeling high and hyper, which alo makes me crappy, so there might be alot of insignificant things in this post that you might want to skip and go straight to the bottom line where I sum everything up.


Singing the national anthem to the clock is so funny it makes me feel like laughing. [but people would call me wierd] But at least singing to the clock is better than not singing at all. People should not push others. [literally and figuratively] 213 has too much attitude than our teachers can handle [not exactly the best thing ever] Our teacher's think we hate them, but we think our teacher's hate us first, so then we do seem like we hate them and blahblahblah. Our form teacher is pissed with us, I just realised she uses the word 'pissed' alot. I like my form teacher but doubt she likes me. *takes a deep breath* I want to play in the rain like I used to. I'm so bored now. I have a jap compo to hand in tomorrow and I haven't started. How smart. I also have so much homework I haven't started on but has no idea what they are. I need to do filing. Our heavy workload and increasingly hectic schedule leaves us 14 year olds with no time for play or recreation.


God loves me and I want to love the people. People give me a chance to love.

Argh-ness??

Lots of things I wanted to write about today. But I forgot. >< I am so amazed by myself. Oh! Interesting topic! I saw someone on the train today with a tweetybird tattoo! No offense but tattoos should be more fierce shouldn't they, what for go through all the pain for a little cartoon etched on your forearm for eternity? Unless you're a diehard fan of tweety bird I suppose.. *shrugs* But I hardly see tweety bird stuff around anymore. But tweety bird's like, classic, like disney and looney tunes. They're all classics. Classic is nice, it's kinda like saying it lasts through generations and generations and no one really gets sick of it. Then what's the definition of classical music I wonder.

Less talk about the classics of our modern world, let's talk about Singapore's declining population. The oh-so-hot topic the government is talking about now. Hmm,maybe not, maybe it's just because we're learning about population studies that I'm going crazy. I have a feeling I'm being brinwashed. *gasp* Actually, it might be because I have a premonition that I'm gonna fail me geog test that's why all the talk about our population.

But I seriously don't find anything wrong with kids. And I support procreation in marriage [this coming from someone who doesn't plan to get married and give birth {I'd adopt}] And kids in your marriage don't drive you apart, they bond you and your husband closer together. I don't see why people can marry so easily and then get a divorce just as easily. I suppose it's brought on by westernization [look at Britney Spears, Marie Presley, Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt dardardar]. I don't remember any chinese tales in which people get divorced. At the most they'll get another wife. But at least they still are attached to their old wife.


Sometimes I think this world is really going to the dogs. Most of us are becoming dogs already actually. Lots of people don't take marriage seriously anymore. Singapore's divorce rate is growing. Do they not take a vow, don't they stand in front of a minister as a testimonial to god that they as a couple will stay together through thick and thin? through sickness or death? [is it like that? I ain't sure] Or maybe the majority of the divorced couples never went through any vows whatsoever. That's the problem when you don't have christian marriage. But there are those even with a christian marriage, that still go against God. And I wonder who's fault is that.


Lol. I doubt even though I might be a romantic and all that, I think that those boyish ones in my batch of Sec 2s'06 will get a boyfriend and get married earlier than me. My standards are just far too high.^^ Anyway, I ain't looking for a bf.


I don't see why people want relationship partners so early in life, we don't need another burden on our already-heavy-loaded shoulders. Maybe it's the lack of love we all suffer from one way or another in this money-driven world. Whatever the problem, I just don't find it right.


Haiy, I'd never be able to solve the problems of the world, thereare just too many.

1. Grab the book nearest to you and turn to Page 18, Line 4.
Not long after leaving, the old goat heard the bell's tinkle, so he hurried... [I was suprised this book even had a page 18...]


2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can.
I touched Vol 7 of DeathNote. :D


3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?
Lovers in Paris? [but I watched Air 1 on the com]


4. Without looking, guess what the time is.
9.50


5. Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
10.15 -_^ Time runs faster than I thought, I'll have to train harder to catch it I suppose.

6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
The fan, it gives me a very reassuring sound.


7. When did you last step outside?
6.40 in the morning.


8. Before you started this survey, what did you look at?
The laptop screen. duh, what else?


9. What are you wearing?
Oh, why do you need to know?


10. Did you dream last night?
Ah no, not in my memory card. It says I did not fantasize anything whatsoever when I was semi-concious.


11. When did you last laugh?
As in really laugh out loud? Or laugh in my mind? Lol would be in school, in my mind it would be when I read that Geri dreamt cloud was her lover!!! Woo!


12. What is on the walls of the room you are in?
Paint?

13. Seen anything weird lately?
Like what? Actually, I saw an alien ship crashing into my HDB flat and erasing everybody's memories, even your's, but I kept my memory card safely hidden in my piggy bank. :D


14. What do you think of this quiz?
Lame. I mean, who asks the obvious like what you looked at before starting the quiz? quite obviously the screen would have to come first right?


15. What is the last film you watched?
Don't ask, I don't remember. This shows that bringing me to the cinema is a waste of time and money.


16. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
How would I know? I'd put everything except for 500,000 in the bank first I suppose, then I'd proceed to buy, um, landed property?


17. Tell me something about you I don't know.
You know me. Revelation.


18. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change?
The world's fine alright. I'd change the people living on it.


19. Do you like to dance?
What dance? I can't dance salsa, but heck, shall we dance?


20. George W Bush...
is a pathetic excuse for a president who presides over 14? states.


21. Imagine your first child is a girl. What would you call her?
My first child will be adopted and will be a boy.


22. Imagine your first child is a boy. What would you call him?
Ah, I thought of a son but he is faceless and nameless. I don't do names.


23. Would you ever consider living abroad?
yah, when we get a horrible prime minister [like G.W.B] and corrupted government, so nowhere in the near future perhaps.


24. What would you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates?
Welcome home.


25. 4 people who must do this in their blogs.
Hmm, who wants to know what people wear in front of their computers?

Woo. Talking about my last post where I said I was slow, well, I was so slow as to save my last post as a draft. Haiy, when will I ever grow up. ><

Since school started, I've been feeling that argh-school-is-such-a-waste-of-time feeling. 213 just got "prep talked" today about our unresponsiveness and tardy work. Oh well, I don't know what's wrong with this year. Last year was worse I suppose, whenI compare it with this year. But P6 was the best! I wish my life could be a replay of P6, then I'd be eternally happy. ^^

I am really wondering why I chose to go to RGS nowadays. It's like super-stressfull, bleak, academic life. The neighbourhood schools seem to have it more colourful. But it's like Emma said I suppose, there are neighbourhood school students who want our hectic lifestyle, and we pine for a slack lifestyle, but after we both get tired of them, we will hanker for our previous lives. So much for steadfast-ness. Human nature is so fickle *sighs and shakes head*.

We will go out into the working world at 20 with grey in our hair and lines in our face. Such is the fate of our students. Just kidding, it's a great big exxageration, maybe not so big. Look at Jing Wei, she has a headfull of grey hair. No kidding.

My fickle nature will ensure that I'd never be able to stay in an office job. DUH. I'm gonna set up a boutique in the second story of some Shophouse near Chinatown. ahh, Big dreams, I don't even know if I'd be able to fulfill it. I plan long, but never in between. That's my problem, so don't ask me how I'm ever gonna set it up.

Ah!! I forgot all about the RahOch webby. Haiy, I'll try to finish it in the June school hols I suppose. Well wish me good luck to surviving this term without getting expelled or suspended or getting another BETA.

Good night and good luck

Woah, long time since I've updated. Sorry, cause the main com couldn't get into blogger [don't ask me why *shrugs*]


Haiy, so many things have been happening this weekend, like spending whole day at church, I liked that :D and um.. Going to SHATEC!! for a Western Dining Ettiquette course thing in which I knew hlf the things they taught except for the part about hosts and guests. [The part that got me tickled was when Mr. Low talked about the couple who asked for chilli sauce and got thrown out by the chef! HOW can the chef PAY them 600 bucks [most probably euros] to throw them out, but I guess it was really insulting for the couple. Who ask them to ask for chilli sauce... Even I know better. But when you imagine it, it's really funny.

You have a BIG HULKING european chef, with a really cute moustache!! [The kind that curls up at the ends] towering over a chinese couple [who wants to smother chilli over their food] and then the chef is trying his bad not to get mad and he's turning red [ok, this is just part of my imagination] and the chinese couple is squeaking away for their chilli sauce and the big chef goes booming "GET OUT OF MY RESTAURANT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU IN HERE AGAIN!"


Haha! I was trying hard not to laugh and sydney was behind me laughing something I said.. I can't remember what already. Anyway, the best part was the last part! The DINNER!! Oh man,that was the first time I ever ate honeydew for appetizer It was really wierd. But it was nice. They forgot to give my honeydew to me and the matron? went "Oh deary me [really no kidding] first we forget to give you your drinks, then we forget your appetizer!" He was really funny, but he looked kinda disapproving sometimes. Oh, and when somebody in the kitchen did something [sounded like he/she dropped lots of dishes in the sink] and we all heard this 'crash' he went "Oh! Looks like it's going to rain." [insert polite laughter] Lots of them were really slow and didn't get it.


I don't really see why people look at us RGS girls differently, true, we have more stress, more enrichment activities which I suppose I'll never see a need for, more people going 'You're all from RGS, how can you do this... blahblah" But what makes us different from all other students? WHY do they look at us and say we're proud? I mean, yes maybe some of us are proud, but not EVERYONE here. But I think I'm slower than the average student from a neighbourhood school bout some stuff. And I can be really blur at times. We're all the same, prejudice is scary.

Early Mornings

I like waking up before dawn. Although I'm not as refreshed as waking up normally, I still feel kinda, I don't know how to explain it. It's just this feeling that I get when I wake up really early. :D Like when I woke up in Muar at 6:50. I liked Muar.


Anyway, I woke up at 6:11 today [according to my handphone] and I left the house at 6:40 so I could go to Hougang Sec to find that current measurement thingy for Jing Xian, but they didn't find anything. T_T Therefore, because of the earliness [is there such a word?] I reached school at 7:15+!!!! When I was supposed to be here at 8:30. Nevermind, I like having spare time. I'll sleep in RS [oops]


Waking up early on a schoolday is terrible, none of that nice feeling. But is you wake up and know that something nice is gonna be happening, like waking up to catch a plane, I get really excited! :D I dunno, waking up early in foreign lands are also exciting to me. Me and my bro usually wake up early to watch the sunrise in different countries. Even waking up early in Sentosa is totally different from waking up early on a school day. Haiy.


I want to go to Japan, land of high living expenses. I can find so many faults with that country and still continue loving it after all that. Is that called love? Like how my mom can continue loving me with my thousand and one bad ways, and how she can live with my dad for 16 over years despite... um, him.*shrugs* How come I love Japan so much?

I don't wanna go for RS. I don't mind going to learn Western Dining Ettiquette cause Jing said they had good food in Shatec, can't wait for my 4pm dinner :D

Today is my birthday. Only 5 people wished me "Happy Birthday". Only 2 actually said it to my face. Growing up does suck.

The Ones Who Sit In The Dark

Tuesday - hmm, that would have been two days ago - was the day I went on a battlefield tour. It wasn't that bad, lots of blood and gore, but only in the stories, the stories of bloody fights on my darling little Singapore. Our guide was one who tried, in spite of his own beliefs, to give us the unadultarated version of the whole war. But there was a very big issue of the Geneva.. um something. AHH!! I can't remember what it was called but it started with a C.


Anyway, it is an agreement signed by a country stating that it will not break those rules by treating their POWs[Prisoners of War] badly, by not intruding on their human rights. And according to those rules which Japan and the US signed, the POWs have a right to their uniforms and their senses. Both of which was breached respectively. Are POWs not allowed to be treated as humans? Are they not allowed to still be proud of the country they have fought for? Are they to be humiliated? To be treated like dogs or scum? When they could be more honourable than any of the soldiers torturing them? Are they to be treated badly when all they have done was to defend their own nation?


According to Japan, the soldiers said they were not informed that their government had signed it, either that, or they refused to accept that Japan had agreed because they did not agree with the government signing such an agreement. What twisted lies to cover their horrible misdeeds. But Father forgive them, they know not what they do. To be led on by a madness resulting from selfish ambition. To destroy in the dream that you could create, and create what?


America, I suppose I consider it worse there. It's where people live out the American dream do they not? While suffering continues right in the neighbouring country. While they invaded Iraq for it's precious oil. While the price of petrol goes up in other places. While there is genocide under their very noses.


How come men revel in the very evil of the world? How come we are born with sin in our minds? And everyday, we cry out to God that he will make our lives easier, that we will not fall into sin. That our lives in good, will be a blessing. I wish I could pray for the world, but there are times when even on my bed at night I forget to pray for myself. That's when the devil strikes. In the dark.


War was conceived in the dark, but carried out in day. By the men who had no choice, by the men who followed orders. Never the presidents in their comfy chairs, or the Prime Ministers in airconditioned Parliaments. Never the ones who first declare war. Don't misunderstand me, I don't think every president is bad. There are great ones who lead their countries to prosperity without destroying another country. But the ones who conceive war, are the ones who sit in the dark.



Oh, I remembered what the agreement is. It's the Geneva Convention.

So much has gone by, and my trusty green diary is not near me. Therefore, the nearest thing i could find was this laptop and thus the birth of this blog! I hope this will keep up, my last blogs all died out sooner or later.